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Mon Jul 6, 2009, 9:56 PM
So, about a week ago was the 2nd year since my daughter's passing. It seems that no matter what it kills me inside. I have tried to be happy and thankful for the life given me this past year.. Seeing as I was given a second chance to live through my trasnplant.

It just never leaves me, the emptiness i feel deep within. Like a knife has cut out my heart and left a black hole in my chest. The ability to truely love is gone. I just don't have it inme anymore to care about much.

Sure, I feel good on days, sure I have driends and loved ones... But the empathy,sympathy,and other emotions are just as grey as a clod ridden day.

I wish I could just vanish at times.. Be free of this life of mine.. maybe start over somewhere else. I can't do that though because I have taken on so much, and Im accountable for those closest to me.. That responsibilty keeps me locked in the life I have to live.. until death...

I hope, and pray I see my girl again someday...

  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: nothin right now
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: Lost Highway
  • Playing: With my mind, and other things around
  • Eating: what I can
  • Drinking: Not enough..

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  • Current Residence: ohio
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: small-medium
  • Interests: music,photography, general naughtiness
  • Favourite movie: LOST HIGHWAY, THE LOST BOYS, Batman the Dark Night
  • Favourite band or musician: METALLICA, SKILLET, Demon Hunter,
  • Favourite genre of music: HEAVY, LOUD
  • Favourite artist: David Lynch-Director
  • Favourite photographer: H.R. Gieger
  • Favourite style of art: many...
  • Operating System: xp and vista.. uggh.. and now MAC YEAH!!
  • MP3 player of choice: zune
  • Favourite game: Rainbow Six Vegas 2
  • Favourite gaming platform: XBOX360
  • Favourite cartoon character: Batman
  • Personal Quote: And now breaking news... That we'll never fix
  • Tools of the Trade: pen and paper.. Nikon

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Hey how`s it going? How`s the injury? Any better? :heart:

And cheers and thanks for faving my new pieces, that`s swell of you. ;)

Really hope all is well or at least getting there, take care. :hug:
Nope.. as amtter of fact they're not allowed to do surgery on my knee.. long story on that one. So, Im hobbled indefinately... Grrr..
Good news though.. I did get an A as a final grade in my computer course, and an excellent score on my music songwriting mid-term.
So, not all is doom and gloom.. yet...

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Me playin bass... from a while back.. I miss that guitar though
Huh, wtf? Why can't they fix it? Too risky maybe? Man alive that really sucks, sorry to hear that.

But.... congrats on the awesome marks! :w00t: :w00t: An A, absolutely nothing to sneeze at, so way to go! That's great to hear, so I guess school isn't going so badly after all eh? ;) :hug:
Cheers on favouriting some of my pieces, I appreciate that very much. :heart:

How are things going?
You are very welcome.. You have way better ability in art than I do..
Thank you. :heart: Well you have way better writing talent than I do. ;) Cheers!
Thanks for the Watch!! Hellcome to DA!!!
:heart:

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Your poems are sharp and sweet. Really nice. Keep it up. :)

And just noticed you're rather new to DA - welcome and hope you find a good place here to express yourself.

Cheers!

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