So, about a week ago was the 2nd year since my daughter's passing. It seems that no matter what it kills me inside. I have tried to be happy and thankful for the life given me this past year.. Seeing as I was given a second chance to live through my trasnplant.

It just never leaves me, the emptiness i feel deep within. Like a knife has cut out my heart and left a black hole in my chest. The ability to truely love is gone. I just don't have it inme anymore to care about much.

Sure, I feel good on days, sure I have driends and loved ones... But the empathy,sympathy,and other emotions are just as grey as a clod ridden day.

I wish I could just vanish at times.. Be free of this life of mine.. maybe start over somewhere else. I can't do that though because I have taken on so much, and Im accountable for those closest to me.. That responsibilty keeps me locked in the life I have to live.. until death...

I hope, and pray I see my girl again someday...